haiz...he is coming to NZ in 3 weeks ~:(

haiz.. today i answer kean's phone by accidently...and this time is the first called that i answer since 23.7.08.


i thought was my one of my msia fren called...when i answered the phone , then only i answer the phone. who know.. is his voice ~: ( i was like " what the hell is that ?" but i didnt said it out ~

any way, we talked in the phone..and we had a little chat. he keep on repeat the same thing what he said in the txt. he said he dont feel want to end up our relationship...he wont gave up want me back... he want me to think about it, either i really want to end up our relationship or not... and he keep on said about the reason he didnt feel want to end up our relationship... and he dont want just be my fren ...blah blah blah....haiz.. keep on repeat the same thing since we broke up till now ...


something really annoying was, he kept on called some thing like "honey " in chinese ~ =_=!!! and every time i have to correct him... how annoying rite ? and i warned him, the one more he said it again, i will shut the phone straight away... but he still said it out... so, what i did was.. SHUT HIS PHONE... but luckily he didnt phone me any more : )

he asked me to use two weeks think about was this result is what i want ... am i really want to end up the relationship between us ? if i really want to, he want me to said infront of him. he want me give him back the bear that he gave me before ( the bear was his 1st present, is a couple bear, that time when he asked me be his gf, he asked me to took the bear if i accept him, if i didnt accept him, i have to gave him back ) i know is sound stupid ~ but still, that time i feel sweet..but not now...


and something i really feel anoying was, he is coming at 18.8.08 : ( and he already bought the air ticket... WHAT THE HELL Is GOING ON NOW??!!!! when i want him come, he didnt come. now i dont want he come anymore and he want to come ~ and he want to come and find me !!!1 HELP ME ARH!!!! i really dont want to meet him ler...and i really feel he dont have to come lor ~: ( he dunno where am i live, he dunno where is my shcool... he dunno where i work either. so , what the pointed he come here since he dunno anything about NZ... and i quite worry he actually go to the wrong island ~ haha ~:)


and he said, he may be will stay here till he find me : ( omg.. what happen now ? he is the one who want to brake up, he is the one who made me did the decision back to a single. and now i everything going alrite now..but not him ? OMG ~~ ANY ONE CAN HELP ME ? GOD!!! WHERE ARE YOU ?!!!!