i meet him...

today i meet him in city ~

i went to city today around 9 am .but when i went his hotel, he already check out. damn ! that is what only thing in my mind. i really soo pissed of that time. and i was thinking luckily that time wasnt may sze mum pick him up ~ if not, i will in trouble ~:(


today, he treat me really very good and sweet...i almost thinking i want be back with him..but, i dunno why... after some time, i will feel dont want back with him.

now, my mind really very confusing...i dunno either i want him back or not ... today, in the hotel. i was allergic again... my whole head soooo itchy... and i can see he really sooo care about me... that time i really dont think any thing.. just hug him...that time i didnt feel anything confusing...just feel want to hug him.. the only thing i want to do that time is just want to hug him...


but after few minutes ~ i pushed him away... coz that time i feel if i dont want him back , i shouldnt do that ...so i stop hug him and pushed him away.. that time i can see his face ... he really very dissapointed ...


i went home around 4,5 pm~ i was went back by bus. he was waiting with me for the bus..and i cant believe he jst followed me go to the bus. and that time i really feel soo pissed off, and i didnt talked with him at all. and i txt to him and tell him i really VERY PISSED OFF about he followed me.. and he txt me back he not following me, he just want to know where mayc house... and i told him i didnt believe... and he straight away ask the bus driver stop for him to get off ~ and he sent me a msg was :" i dont want you hate him , i get off bus now. byebyye" and i just looked at him from the bus... i really feel want to ask him no to do that, i feel want to stop him... but i didnt... and when i saw him like that.. i really cried...i feel myself sooo bad...poor him....